the days gone by

Okay honestly, i am too lazy to blog most of the time, but here goes anyways. 

Have you ever watched toy story 2? (which, by the way, came out in 1999!). I watched it when it first came out in theaters. Well there's this scene in which Jessie the cowgirl, thinks about how she and her owner used to be best friends. It's illustrated by a song called "When Somebody loved me". Here is the video.

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I played with these for years.

Pretty sad huh? When i was little and watched this scene, i was like " pshh I'm never going to throw out my toys, i'm gonna keep playing with them forever!" By forever isn't really forever and just two days ago, i did exactly what Jessie's owner did: threw out/donated all my old toys. It's crazy how i remembered that scene from so many years ago, but that scene became reality for me today. literally. I remember my shelves being covered in horses and ponies and barbies. I remember feeling like each of my little toys was its own individual. They had names, thoughts and feelings. But now there are just a bunch of nameless pieces of used plastic. Its so crazy how things change and how fast time has gone by.
I'm kind of sad that I had to throw my toys away. Part of me still thinks that my toys have feelings and that they would be sad, just like Jessie, to go into a donation box. Afterall, they kept me company all those years of my childhood. But the truth of the matter is, I grew up. And as much as i would like to stay young forever, there is no denying that everyday takes me further and further away from my childhood. These toys don't hold the same value for me anymore. They take up space that i could use for other things. In a way, it almost seems like i am waving goodbye to childhood. Now there is almost no going back. Only the future. I console myself by thinking that maybe these toys will make another kid happy. They would serve a better purpose somewhere else than boarded up in my closet (or sister's closet). I guess by getting rid of these old toys and even old clothes, i can move forward without all the clutter. Its' time for change and new beginnings. There's no point in dwelling on the past. What's done is done. 

So here's to the future, a new year, and much more :) yay 2012!

and here are some more pictures of all the crap that i cleaned up. 

ok i didn't get rid of these guys, they still make me happy :) 

but this is what I plan on giving away, throwing out or donating to goodwill.  All in fairly good shape. 

I took this picture with a tungsten setting and flash. It came out creepier than i  anticipated. Doesn't it look like some weird crime scene or murder? Well i guess i photoshopped it to make it look more like that. How's sharpening for ya?

them legs. they be sticking out of a garbage bag. I kind of like the florescent  feel.

ok. literally my life is exactly like the life of the girl in "When I was loved"  places that used to house ponies are literally filled with makeup and nail polishes now. Well technically this is my sister's room. But mine is no different.

Here's my room. I used to put all kinds of toys here. Recently it  has held things like BB cream, concealer, lipstick  and earrings. And in a background is a very vintage picture of me and a friend when we were really little. (This obviously artistically represents the conflict between childhood and life now) Check out that ironic juxtaposition! and that lens flare is just so convenient. I totally did not put that there on purpose...